It’s the end of May 2021.
And thus far, I quit my job, turned 30, and got a dog.
All in the midst of a pandemic.
Seems like a weird time to be doing 2/3 of those things at a time like this, eh?
I think so too.
But life must go on.
I’ll admit that at the beginning of going into lockdown, I was more confident and calm about the situation.
For the most part, I still am. But I do occasionally get hit by a mixture of angst, restlessness, and demotivation.
Perhaps a more relevant word to describe my current situation is languishing, a term that started trending this year because of an article by Adam Grant in The New York Times.
Languishing is a sense of stagnation and emptiness. It feels as if you’re muddling through your days, looking at your life through a foggy windshield.Adam Grant, The New York Times
Feeling this way is okay. It’s normal. And I’ve come to accept that, and I’m still working through it. Some days are harder than the rest. And vice versa.
Getting a dog is helping with that to some extent. But it’s not due to the added companionship. It’s more so because of the mindfulness and discipline that’s required as I train and live with my new dog.
So as I prepare to bring my new dog home soon, I’m also training myself to be more mindful and intentional with the energy I give off and how I spend my time – every day.
I’ve had dogs before. And I feel that dogs can sense your emotions and the energy you emit. Whether you’re happy or sad or angry or anxious. And how they behave is a direct reflection of you, the owner.
So this is going to be a new, scary, and exciting journey for sure. Wish me luck!
And speaking of luck, I’ve been fortunate to find a new job amidst all this uncertainty.
Quitting my job was certainly not part of my 2021 plan.
But I believe in manifestation. And maybe the reason why the universe worked its magic, was due to me being clear with what I want in a job and team.
And as I found myself questioning my position more and more since last year, I unexpectedly went through a whole interview process early this year after having a casual chat about a potential project.
Everything just… aligned.
The people, the work, the opportunity.
It was a difficult decision to make, and a leap of faith on both our ends, but I don’t regret taking that step forward. Leaving my old team was hard, but it also meant growth and new open doors for all of us.
Stagnating was the last thing I wanted for myself, even at a time like this.
Turning 30 this year felt symbolic in a way to me.
Time for reflection and change.
My identity, a little more solidified; my adulthood, still immature-ish; and my past, the foundation of my future.
Admittedly, I went through a bit of an existential crisis… Just from knowing how many times the earth circled the sun since I was born, based on some human-created calendar. Meh.
But it’s not a bad thing, I suppose. Evaluating your life and assessing where you are and where you want to be, helps you get what you want out of life. At least that’s how I see it.
And ain’t that just a bit exciting, even in a pandemic?
So let’s stay humble and hopeful. And be kind to others and yourself.
It’s a crazy and hard time…
But life must go on.